The Latest in me banging my head

Well, let me get this out as best as I can. Might be rambling and a bit difficult to get everything out, and will probably sound stupid and “emo” when it’s all done.

I had a job training thing begin last week, and was told to come back Monday at 6 to finish up and start work. I got there just before 6 and…

nothing

Nobody there. Door open, but nobody around.

I waited until about 6 after, and texted the guy I was supposed to meet (the company OWNER) who just said that he forgot. No actual apology and no indication to go home or stay. So I stayed until 7 and left, feeling totally useless and abandoned.

Did I forget to mention that EVERYONE was against me even taking this job. Yep, a fight (very minor, but still) with wife-a-chu, friends calling me stupid, everything. And now I felt really used and stupid.

So, I sleep on it and still am feeling like shit in the morning. I was up around 9 but didn’t do ANYTHING until about 1. Got into a very interesting twitter conversation about possible future endevours with a local self-made businessman (good guy, I’d mention him but I’m keeping ALL names out of this) and someone else helping me with Linkedin when I see that someone else I know is going to be in close proximity to someone I need to ask a question to…

(Now-digression: this person I’m asking about has me blocked on twitter. I don’t know why and that’s what I want asked. I’ll put what I think about blocking a bit later.)

So I ask this other person to ask the question and he blows me off, telling me to “get used to it”. This, in my current mental state, I take as a DOUCHBAG RESPONSE. So I eventually tweet the following:

— For the record-I think of an “unfollow” as a minor slight, but I could be overwhelming so OK. A “block” I see as a “FUCK YOU!” insult. —

Which is exactly how I see it. I then get a snarky comment from him, followed by an unfollow (he was offended by the “FUCK YOU” of it, and appears to be the only one who was offended enought to unfollow.

Well, that was about the low point for me. People started talking to me online after that and tried to cheer me up. I’m a little better, but still stressed out, needing money, feeling unloved (and loved at the same time-thank-you know who you are), etc.

So, do I just “Snap out of it” or do I need “help” or better yet can you help me?

Have to go, there’s a cat attacking me.

I was going to make a Strawberry PAAAAHH but since my pans are dirty, I’ll just post the recipe for the filling here. Ready?

what you need:

• 1 cup sugar
• 1 cup water
• 3 tblsp cornstarch
• 3 tblsp strawberry jello
• 2 tblsp light karo-type syrup
• bit of salt

Mix everything except the jello and boil, stiring very often. When it starts to thicken, add the jello. When it completely thickens (you’ll know it, trust me) remove from heat and allow to cool before pouring over the berries.

So, it seems I had a broken tooth. Well, not “seems” it was broken. Went to a nearby dentist and got the chip removed, but now it looks like I have 2 choices: root canal or pull the tooth. Since I don’t have $1000 for the root canal, it has to be pulled. Looks like it will be happening at the end of the month.
In other news: find me a job. that is all.

So there’s a thing going on this weekend that I want to go to but can’t (it is a few states away-OK TEXAS) but the “Ohio/Michigan” delegation visited so I got to meet some twitter friends and they got to meet me, wife-a-chu, and DA GWEN…

$!@%!%#ing sun

Gwen felt the need to stand with the Statue of Liberty

Group shot: Our twitters: @asetpewpew @janitorbob @rachel1975 @gwensdad

(better quality versions are in my flickr stream. Not sure why these don’t look so good-I’m using new blogging tools)

Because I’ve got nothing else right now, the onion rings I’ve learned to make:

onion (1)-cut and separate into rings

Batter:
1 cup flour
1 cup milk
1 egg (beaten)
splash of oil
some salt

“breading”
bread crumbs-I’ve made mine by tearing up some bread and putting it in the blender on max
paprika

Cut up the onion, mix up the batter, make the breading.

Dip an onion slice into the batter, dip the onion into the breading, place on plate, get about 5-6 rings on plate.
Put rings into deep fryer (375 for 2 minutes) While frying, repeat previous step.
After 2 minutes, remove and place on paper towel to drain, start the next group. Keep going until you think you’ve got enough.

Had a special Warhammer 40K last weekend where I had to use 3000 points of Imperial Guard against a random selection of 3 stompas. So I took pictures just for the sake of taking pictures.

Yeah, haven’t felt much about posting. Mostly because I’ve been down from my job going away and my laptop dying and other crap.

I miss my old job. I mean really miss it. Some people say they have great jobs but really a job where you get paid a nice amount, can “goof off” listening to whatever, yet still truthfully say you were very productive AND served “the people” (it was a government job) and had free time and family time? Not to mention (most of) the people I worked with being Da Awesome? Someone find me something like this (but I don’t think it exists)

So also, we’re down to 1 computer now. This thing is (I think) a little older than Gwen, who just turned 6. In computer years, this is past retirement. Actually looked at a setup from a big chain that had a desktop+laptop+netbook for about $1200, but need that job first…

Also been spending more time on facebook and twitter than is healthy. my twitter is @gwensdad and is up to date and sometimes NSFW (or just weird)

So, that’s it for now. Maybe I’ll be posting again before Christmas. Don’t know if I want to repost the “mailing to Santa” from last year.

My attempts tonight to take telescope photos: